This morning I was attending a Light and Sound service, online. During the HU chant, a recent event came to mind. Something I need to deal with and confess. It relates to how I lost my temper last night.

The situation was that I ordered a pizza through UberEats. I noticed the delivery wasn’t updating. The delivery guy was at the location, but it wasn’t updating. It kept extending my delivery time. I texted the delivery guy who ignored it. I called the restaurant who told me they handed the pizza to him awhile ago. I was so mad. I felt taken advantage of. Not only was the tip prepaid at 18%, but I also paid $4 for priority delivery.

I called the UberEats driver, who told me he was waiting for the pizza. I call the store again and they say no one is waiting for a pickup. No orders are in progress. Someone is lying. I call UberEats support who calls the driver, and now he has the pizza… but it’s an hour late. support won’t cancel the order, which makes me more angry. I ask to talk to a manager, they refuse. They offer to remove the $4 priority fee but I’m stuck with a full order. Now I’m more angry.

After hanging up the pizza arrives late, it’s cold. I was fuming.

The next morning I fight for my money back… and I get a full refund. I should feel rewarded, but I don’t. I feel awful. I abandoned the path of love and light, so I could fight for a $40 refund. It’s shameful.

My anger has been high lately. My family has commented on it. I’ve been angry over little things… little things like that pizza.

Why am I so angry?

My blood pressure has been high. I feel stress in my body all the time. But most of all, I haven’t been doing the spiritual practices. When I do them, it’s like a chore. But when I’m doing them I feel so filled with light. However, the world pulls me back into situations.

The thing about Eckankar is that it’s about understanding the ups and downs of life. There are bad things that happen. They are not to be avoided or mitigated but understood. Our karma is lesson. The late pizza was karma. It was a lesson. Although I got money back, but I didn’t win did I? The lesson will be repeated in the future until I can respond with Love and Light.